Been Gone

I have been gone for a long minute but life goes on. Relationships have come and gone but one fact still remains, I will not, shall not give up on love. Love is out there for everyone and it comes when you are not looking for it.

We spend our time saying "I love me", "I'm taking time to get to know me", "I don't need anyone in my life for me to be happy" but all the while we are hoping that that person is right around the corner. The actuality of it is that we don't find that person until we stop looking, stop searching, stop longing. We should pay attention to the words we speak. Take time to date ourselves, love ourselves, and get to know ourselves intimately. If you do this you won't be willing to settle for just anyone or anything.

I had been content with how my life was going. I had my family, my friends, and dates here and there. Most of these men of course were nowhere near relationship material. When I stopped looking or expecting others to look my way or even break a body part to gain my attention I found a "happy place". That place was broken by a mistaken view on my part. I jumped the gun as so many do. I got my heart broken and my feelings hurt. When I looked up someone who I didn't see coming picked up those pieces.

That person can be a friend who never forced themselves on you, it could be that church member that always made sure you got home safely, or even that high school buddy who after years of friendship you didn't think to take it to that level. No one should ever give up on love. Giving up on love is like giving up on life itself.